Free From The Dreadful Taint

I had invested everything in a version of myself that was never wrong, a version of myself that could never be culpable for any failing, any filthy scurrilous misdemeanor, any wrong-doing. I had invested everything I had. I had invested it all. I had paid the price in full. I had invested everything I had in a version of myself that knew no guilt a squeaky-clean smiling grinning self a model self a faultless self a Teflon self no rumour of anything suspect would ever adhere, no taint of anything unclean or underhand no rumour no taint no accusing fingers would ever be pointed in my direction no accusing eyes staring at me no angry voices no culpability would ever adhere to me no darkly muttering voices no pointing fingers the fault would never be mine no blame could ever be attached to me no rumour of any wrong-doing. I would be free to skip and caper through life wearing my shiny dancing shoes skipping gaily through life completely unburdened by the guilt of existence free from all taint free from all blame free from the dreadful appalling guilt the guilt the guilt the guilt that clings the guilt that burdens the guilt that follows grimly like a dark dark shadow. I’m so free I say I’m so free I laugh free from all taint of unworthiness free from the terrible guilt of wrong-doing I had invested in the self that could do no wrong the self that would always come out smelling of roses no matter what the fracas. I had invested everything I had and now I was free to skip and dance my way gaily through life never a care never a worry unencumbered by the thoughts and fears of wrong-doing free from the weight of the dreadful guilt free from the onerous taint of evil actions free from muttering voices and pointing fingers free from the eyes that accuse the eyes that blame free to skip and caper through life so delightfully free to do as you please. I feel so free I say I feel so free I laugh delightedly I’m so free I say so delightfully light and unencumbered by the dark stinking taint of evil actions the terrible taint of wickedness free from the weight of dreadful appalling culpability the dark cloud of terrible haunting guilt free to do whatever I please free to skip and dance through life free to caper and dance free to caper and dance free to caper and dance free to caper and dance free to caper and dance free to caper like a demon…

 

 

 

 

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