Not Cool

I was in the environment. I was in my special environment like a King in his Kingdom, like a fish in his pond. Wow it was great there! I was hanging out there; I was doing all the cool things there. Doing all the cool things that there are to do in the environment. I was doing all the cool stuff that you’re supposed to do. It feels good being in the environment – I know that I’m doing all the cool stuff, I know that I’m having a great time. I know that I’m having a great time because the environment tells me that I am! The environment puts the thoughts in my head so that I believe them: “You’re having a great time you’re having a great time you’re having a great time…” it says. That’s how come I know. The environment tells me that I’m doing cool stuff. I know that it’s cool stuff that I’m doing because the environment tells me that it is. It makes me feel good to know that I am doing the cool stuff.

 

The environment tells me lots of things. It provides me with lots of helpful information. That’s the type of environment it is – it’s an intelligent environment. It tells me what I am feeling. It tells me what I’m thinking. It tells me what I like and what I don’t like. I wouldn’t know otherwise! The intelligent environment tells me when I am having fun. “You’re loving it!” the environment tells me. You’re loving it you’re loving it you’re loving it you’re loving it you’re loving it. The environment also tells me when I am having a crap time. “You’re having a shit time.” it tells me.  It tells me that my life is shit. This is shit this is shit this is shit this is shit this is shit. It makes me feel bad inside when everything is shit. I get very unhappy then. At times like this I wish I could be having a great time instead.

 

It’s lovely and cosy in the environment. It’s snug. I’m as snug as a bug in a rug. It’s super-snug, super-cosy. All my needs are catered for. By the best catering company in the world. First they are created and then they are catered for. Or they’re not. All my fears are catered for too! When that happens then things aren’t so snug, they aren’t so cosy. But we won’t dwell on that, will we? We won’t dwell on the negative. The environment tells me that it’s very important not to dwell on the negative. It tells me about how important it is to always focus on the positive. “Positive thinking is good!” the environment tells me. “Negative thinking is bad, negative thinking is for losers…” Negative thinking is for losers negative thinking is for losers negative thinking is for losers. That’s the tape-loop that is always running in my head. About how important it is to stay positive. So that you don’t turn into a loser. I don’t want to be having negative thoughts. I don’t want to be a loser. It’s not cool to be a loser.

 

You’re a loser you’re a loser you’re a loser you’re a loser you’re a loser you’re a loser says the environment. You’re a screw-up you’re a screw up you’re a screw-up you’re a screw-up you’re a screw up you’re a screw-up. You’re not cool you’re not cool you’re not cool you’re not cool. I don’t like being a loser so I have to try to do what the environment tells me to do. In order not to be a loser, in order not to be a screw-up. In order not to be uncool. I have to try very hard. I have to try to be what the environment wants me to be. Then everything will be cosy! Then everything will be snug! Snug. As. A. Bug. In. A. Rug.

 

 

 

 

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