## I was trapped in the rational mind. Trapped in the rational mind trapped in the rational mind trapped in the rational mind trapped in the rational mind trapped in the rational mind trapped in the rational mind trapped in the rational mind trapped in the rational mind trapped in the rational mind trapped in the rational mind trapped in the rational mind. “What’ll I do if *this* thing happens?” I wondered, “What’ll I do if *that* thing happens? What’ll I do if the *other* thing happens?” I couldn’t stop fretting about nonsense: “How will I cope if a bad thing happens?” I asked myself, “What should I do about it? What’s the best thing to do? What shouldn’t I do? What’s the very worst thing to do?” Inbetween the fretting thoughts I was driving myself demented by analyzing absolutely *everything:* “What does* this* thing mean?” I wondered, “What does *that* thing mean? What does the *other* thing mean? What do *any* things mean?”

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## I was also busy making goals and planning. Planning this, planning that, and planning the other. My brain was actually going frantic. Frantic in the Atlantic. It was *hopping*. Hopping like a mad thing. “I wonder if I should make a goal to do some more planning once I’ve finished this lot of planning?” I asked myself. “Or should I plan to stop planning for a while?” It was all getting too much for me. “What’s the point in all this planning?” I wondered in a despairing way. And then the next thing was that I found myself wondering in pure perplexity, “What’s the point in all this wondering?”

## My mind did a double back-flip. Flippity flippity flippity flip. Flippity flippity flippity flip. Flippity flippity flippity flip. Flippity flippity flippity flip. Flippity flippity flippity flip. Flippity flippity flippity flip. Flippity flippity flippity flip. Flippity flippity flippity flip. Flippity flippity flippity flip. Flippity flippity flippity flip flip.

## That last flip caught me by surprise. I didn’t see it coming. It blind-sided me. It came out of nowhere. It caught me out big time and threatened to push me right over the edge altogether. “What happens if I get pushed over the edge?” I wondered. That wouldn’t be good at all. “What’s the right thing to do if you get pushed over the edge?” I asked myself. Getting pushed over the edge certainly wasn’t part of my plan I said to myself in a worried way. Then the humour of it hit me. I was stone mad as it was! Wasn’t my mind busy doing double back-flips, for God’s sake?

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## How the hell could I be worried about being pushed over the edge, I wondered. What was I thinking about? What was my problem? Wasn’t I as mad as a godamn rat anyway? My mind was doing the quadruple back-flip now:

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## “I’m fucking stone mad demented already,” I told myself, “What have I got to worry about?”

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